Stand to pee fun (or not)

I ordered a STP (stand to pee) packer (fake penis) as well as a harness. It fits well. It’s getting used to that’s the problem!

My first day I thought I had to squish it hard against my uhh .. cockpit. Nope. Made a mess. Changed pants often. It was also hard to start the stream. Anxiety. But it was cool to see the stream come out where it’s supposed to. 

I threw away my scrotal support thing that I bought to try, before throwing $30 on a proper harness. I had cut a separate hole for my fake balls. After accidents, I gave up until my harness came. Much easier. More practice. 

I learned to just let it sit comfortably in the harness and let it flow. No fancy hand tricks, just slow the stream. It worked. No more messes. It’s been a week and I’m peeing like a champ. Standing up. Practice makes perfect.

I see my counsellor on Tuesday. Yay! Closer to “T” (testosterone). She’s setting me up with a GP there, since my “new” one fired me for cancelling the meet and greet for having a fucking emergency. I gave them 24 hours notice.

I called, they bitched me out and told me to, basically, Fuck off. I’ve been there since 2012 and my GP moved. How goddamn nasty.

The bonus: it’s an LGBTQ friendly centre. My awesome counsellor called me after I got the news and said “well, no new patients but you’ve been here since 2013 and can access any care provider here. I’ll help you on Tuesday”. She rocks.

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The difference a hairdo and glasses make

Playing around with my hair today. Slicked it back. Never wore it like this before, it’s actually quite long for me. It took a lot of gel (sorry M, I ran out) and hairspray, but it looks much better. I also got my glasses from Zenni today. Kids sized! But male. Check out my new look.

Also, I’ve been trying too hard with my STP packer. I’ve gotta let it go and let it flow (TMI!) Less mess. Not ready to use it in public, but no more, uh, accidents. And it makes “walking like a man” easier because, well, there’s something there! Enough about my bladder and fake penis for today.  I’ll find something more interesting to write about tomorrow!

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Stand to Pee FTM

I ordered my STP (stand to pee) packer from Come As You Are and the shipping time was soo fast, plus its in Canadian dollars, with free shipping if you order over $50, or subscribe to the mailing list. I bought a scrotal support thing from the pharmacy, but it sucked, so I bought a harness, too. I got that today!

form-function-model-d-stp-1I felt an instant rush when I saw that piece of silicone in my hand. I hooked it into my scrotal support thingy (waste of $20) and cut a hole for my new, silicone, balls. I went to the bathroom, pulled off my pants and underpants, and tried to pee.

Then I tried harder.

Harder again. Not easy.

Then the stream started. What a rush when it came out of the tip. Well, it also came out of the back. I pissed all over the toilet (I didn’t have the lid up, derp), the floor, my legs. Good thing I was pantsless. I adjusted. Nope. I finally finished peeing, cleaned up my mess, and the packer, and snapped it into my undies. Try, try again. But first, I ordered a proper harness.

2016-12-06-20-40-13So I tried again a few more times, in the shower, without the scrotal support. My roommate must think I shower a bazillion times a day. I finally put it away (in my pants) and strutted around. Finally, I can take dick pics. So I did. Lots of dick pics. Turns out I know nada about male anatomy. So, I put it away for the weekend and my harness arrived on Tuesday. My MTF trans friend told me that my dick pics were all wrong. Oops. She told me how to wear it correctly. Yay for advice. When I got my harness, I was stoked.

First attempt: Yay! But I put an old towel down, just in case, got outta my pants and undies. Second attempt, yay! Third attempt, some spillage. It does get easier. And now I know how to walk and sit like a man. Boy, does it feel wonderful. Standing while peeing is so much more exciting than one would think. It feels so right.And I even have a bulge in my pajamas. Look closely. And that is enough intenet for now.

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